Earlier this week, we celebrated the beginning of Lent, and of course that means it is a great time to do a lot of reflective thinking, and refocus on the things that are important.
Now, when I say the things that are important, I mean not only important to me, but to my family as well and my role in my family.
No doubt, you know that I home school, I am a stay at home mom, and that job consists of everything under the sun.
There are tons of things that I would love to do just for myself. To focus more on what it is that I want, and the things that just bring me joy.
However, I know that at this stage in my life, there are things that require sacrifices on my part. And when I see one of my interests that takes up too much time away from my family, I have to reevaluate.
I have to ask myself, is it something that I am doing that helps me be better at what I do, or is it only for my personal gain while leaving my family in the dust.
My favorite post to do during the week, my vlog on Fridays has me questioning this.
Wednesday I sat down in the car to record a video, while my mother watched my kids. I stopped mid video and asked myself, is this really what I want.
No. It’s not. No other words screamed out louder to me than this. I stopped, and got out of the car to be with those who I love the most.
I like being present, and if doing something that I like to do (like be on my phone or vlogging) is disrupting that, then I need to reevaluate. (Because vlogging is not just about recording the video, it’s about taking time to edit it after your done as well.)
A long time ago, I promised myself that I won’t start any heavy-duty projects because I know how I get, I am easily frustrated when I am not allowed to finish it.
Vlogging has turned into a heavy-duty project for me.
So while I’m not letting it go completely, I will be doing it in spurts, and posting on a non committed schedule.
The times when I can to post the way I feel comfortable and not hiding away just to do it, I will appreciate even more the down time that I had and decided to share it with you—all of you—without feeling like I’m neglecting a part of me.
Lent is funny-and beautiful at the same time. It helps us reevaluate the important things, and reminds us to let go of things that only has our personal gain. It is a constant reminder of who do we live for.
Even though I am a stay at home mother, and there is a lot of other things I could be doing with my time, I like how I spend it with my family. These moments, I know I will never get back, so I’m going to make the best of them.
I hope you all have a great weekend, and be mindful of the ones you love.
This post was inspired by Laila over at Only Laila with her post: Becoming A Hands Free Mama.
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Dear Kalley,
I think you are a wise woman and mother! I know I could never have been all there for my children or teens if I had blogged while we homeschooled. Even if I sent them to school, I would have been distracted and it would have eventually lead them to feel me too busy or worse, uninterested. Now the Lord has given me another season, and I am so glad I waited. May the Lord give you peace to do the most important thing! Multiplied blessings!
Thank you so much Jacqueline! I’ve realized that writing posts are best for me to be mindful since I can write while they sleep-it also helps me be present during the day. Making videos took too much time away from my family so it wasn’t in their best interest nor mine. I know down the line I’ll get back into it (because I really love recording videos) but there’s no rush.
Bravo to you for listening to what God was telling you and being obedient to put down what was good, but not the best for you at this time. Lent really is a good time for the spiritual checkup and introspection that are needed if we are to grow up into what God’s calling us to, even in the smaller things that may not seem like much.
Hi Kalley, I’m seeing more and more bloggers reevaluating there blogging routines lately. It does us all well to do those check-ups from time to time. Knowing when to let go is just as important as knowing when to launch. Hooray for you for heeding the Father’s direction.
I admire your discipline. I’m one of the obsessive types that struggle to give in… sometimes, too often, to a fault. Your discipline is inspiring my own. Thanks. And thanks to Wanda for linking this up.