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Crazy Unplanned Week

This past week was just crazy. I live in a Co-Op, and this week was our turn to remove old tiles from hallway. Since this building is old, they are removing asbestos from the floors as well—so that means we must leave. Now, they didn’t mention that during the shareholder meeting, we found out when they put a notice on our door the day before. Normally, that would have been okay if life was kind. But life seems to always throw a cruel monkey wrench into things, and things were anything but calm. Tuesday was the first day for the scheduled work. So we left the home by 8am (as instructed) and headed out with this kids. In the cold, we had to find somewhere to go. About 8 hours later, we find that they didn’t do anything and there was a miscommunication.  They meant to say they will start on Wednesday (?!!). If they knew this Tuesday, they should have said something—but nope. Nada. Wednesday rolls around and we end up having a Nor’Easter that dropped a huge amount of snow on us. Luckily, we didn’t have to head out, but the weather already did its damage outside and in. My son has asthmatic symptoms when things get cold, so we do our best to keep the air moist and not dry. However, during the storm, the wind was howling and in our apartment the temperature dropped—the air became colder. By the very early hours of Thursday, my husband and I woke up to my son coughing and trying to breathe. Mind you, Thursday we had to leave. So...

The Four Last Things: Fearing Death

While I was reading my book (The Four Last Things), it dawned on me that I should share my meditations and thoughts with you as I read it. Afterall, how many of you will willingly pick up a book about death, dying, judgement, Heaven and Hell? Sharing these meditations with you also helps me with my readings.  Reading books like these, and sharing what we learn will help all of us grow holier, and closer to our Lord during this season.  First though, I want to talk about the purple elephant in the room: why (if you’re a red-blooded person), do we fear dying so much?  Well the book that I’m reading explains three main reasons why: 1. The love of life 2. We understand that death is bitter, and when we die it is full of suffering. 3. We don’t know where we will go after death or how we will stand when it’s time for Judgement. So let’s break this down a bit. 1. The Love of Life There is no doubt that we all love our lives.  We are constantly reminded that we have one life to live and we should live it to be best of our abilities.  We must have bucket lists and things to do before we are 30, 40, 50…you get the point. The assumption is that you only have one time to do it and if you don’t want a life full of regrets over the things that you wanted to do, you should do them now.  You don’t want to be in the group of people who had regrets before death!...
Lenten Season Begins

Lenten Season Begins

  In a few days from writing this post we will be in the Lenten season.  This year is very interesting though, since it also falls on Valentine’s Day.  Like usual, I’m trying to think of something I want to focus on during the season of Lent.  Previously, I’ve given up social media, and sugar, but like last year, I want to do something more meaningful. Last year, my Grandmother passed away on the first day of Lent, and while I was taking care of my newborn, I wasn’t able to attend the funeral.  It was at home, while mourning, that I truly noticed how short the fabric of life was.  On one hand, I was mourning the loss of life of my maternal grandmother, the last grand parent that I had living.  On the other hand, I was nurturing this huge potential for a future: my son, whose life just began.  Then there was me: between the two, at the midpoint of my life, knowing that one day, my time will come as well. More Than Giving Something Up Last Lent, I decided to real some very “heavy material.”  The Four Last Things–Death, Judgement, Heaven, and Hell as well as Preparation for Death.  This year, I’m thinking about revisiting the books. It’s not that I think of death often, I think It’s because I don’t think of it often enough. Sometimes, we get caught up in our day-to-day lives that the idea is always lingering in the background but we never really turn to it, unless we’re forced to.  We are forced to face our mortality idea when loved one or family friend passes...

Looking Back on 2017

It’s that time of year again when we look back on our lives (at least this year) and reflect how this year had gone.  I used to hate this time of year, since we can get so nostalgic about the past, but lately I have been very thankful for it.  It does allow me to think about where I was, if I am where I want to be, and what  have I been doing with my time. Saying Hello. Last year, right before the year ended, by 3rd child was born.  It seems odd to start with the end of last year, but I feel that is where it all began.  My 3rd child was my “stop drawing into myself” child.  Slowly, I noticed how doubt, fear, and worry kept creeping back into my life.  Worried that I was going to get sick again.  Not even sure if I was dealing with a chronic illness, but the fear was paralyzing. When he was born, it was a reminder to me that I will do what I have to do to stay healthy, and I will do it for my children.  Not because they need me, but more because I need them.  So that is where the “happiness begins for me.”  I am thankful that he entered into my life, and I was once again able to see what is important for me and my family. Saying Goodbye. Sadly in March, I said goodbye to my only remaining grandmother.  Such a sad affair too since I was unable to attend her funeral.  Holidays doesn’t seem the same as before because...
Like Everyone Else

Like Everyone Else

Last Sunday was the first day of Advent.  Advent is a time for waiting, and preparation for Chirst who is to come again. As we prepare our home for Him, I cannot help but think about the world, and how everyone else will be celebrating this season.  Even though we do it differently, I wonder about the pull that my kids could quickly get sucked into and the desire to be like everyone else. That of course had me thinking about our Salvation history — the Bible.  In the Old Testament, after the Israelites were saved, and God had established them his people.  The Israelites had that same pull to be like everyone else.  They wanted a king like everyone else, and even though they were warned about it, they still desired to fit in.  Time and time again, God was obviously right, and the people wrong, but that didn’t stop them from desiring the same thing. Advent Season or Christmas Season I teach my children that we are happily in the season of Advent. It’s not Christmas season for us yet.  However, the culture around us is in full swing of the Christmas Seasons.  Songs about white Christmas, and Happy Holidays are blaring in all the stores (most likely to entice people to spend more).  Commercials are all about Christmas gifts and how great of a person you’ll be if you buy ___ (fill in the blank with anything). As long as snow is falling in the background, and smiles as people open gifts, and happy to get what they finally wanted its a Merry Christmas indeed!  What used...
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