The past several weeks, I have been quiet. We recently moved into what would be our “forever” place. More like: “we pray that the kids will grow up to adulthood here” place. We have been thankful, regardless of all the bumps we’ve come across, so good or bad days, we are thankful.
However, lately, I’ve felt that I’m not doing enough. Let me backtrack–since the Supreme Court ruling, there has been a sadness through the Catholic community. As if the battle is lost, and there is nothing we can do.
Odd, I don’t have that feeling. I have the feeling that now is the time for us to live our faith. So many evils in the world has happened because we have become lethargic, and apathetic about our faith.
I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So because thou art lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spew thee out of my mouth. (Rev 3:15-16)
A long time ago, I had wished to spend my life in prayer. I hoped to be a nun but found out that was not my calling. Now with my motherhood vocation and being my children’s teacher, somehow I feel like it’s not enough. A part of me wants to go out and do more, be a part of more, but it took time to realize that’s because I am not appreciating what I have been given.
Not everyone can be a Saint Thomas Aquinas or Saint Teresa of Calcutta. We all have different gifts to share with the world. How can I want to do more, when I have yet to fulfill this task that I have been given? How can I want to save my soul, when I have been given the care of young souls to show them the way to heaven?
Everyday, I am aware more and more of the responsibility that we have been given–even more so in the light of the Supreme Court ruling and what that means for children who will be attending public and Catholic schools.
So all parents, whether you are home or not, homeschooling or teaching, you have been given an enormous task. The early years in a child’s life is the most vulnerable. We have been tasked to raise our children to know and fear the Lord in a society that appears to reject God. It is our task to teach them how to be a light in a dark world, but first we must become the light ourselves. We must pray to never become discontented with the responsibility that we have, but rejoice in our chance to be tried. To show ourselves and our ability to handle these tasks.
They saying, “You cannot teach what you don’t have.” Rings so true in our society today.
This is why I say, what we do is enough. To teach them, we must first understand. The only way for us to understand, is to pray for knowledge and understand. Above all, rely on God’s graces for strength.
Have you ever felt that what you’re doing is not enough? What do you do to combat that feeling?
Good Monday Morning. This was an essential read to start off this week. I recently began working from home and numerous obstacles have come up that are causing me to second-guess the timing of my decision. I got really down the last week or so because I truly feel like I’m failing myself and my family. It’s a struggle and one that I know I need to pray and meditate on. But I, also, need to take action and work out the plan that God gave me to best use my gifts and talents to live out the vision He gave me.
The recent decisions and actions in our communities have really taken a toll on us emotionally. I look at my children and the world we live in. As their parent I definitely have to stay prayerful and help shape their values and beliefs by words and actions. I can say one thing but I need to make sure that my walk is in alignment with the virtues I want them to embrace. Not only my walk, but those that I have in our circle.
Hi Michelle, and thank you for taking the time out to comment.
I know where you’re coming from, I too feel like there is more that I can do. We are constantly told that we should be able to do it all, and when we cannot, we’re told that we’re failures–or not trying hard enough.
Too often we’re told to divide ourselves and put our attention everywhere, even though we know it’s physically impossible. We convince ourselves that should add more to our plate when we haven’t cleared what is already there.
God gave you a gift, and He has a plan for you and that gift, like you said you need to remain prayerful and meditate to stay focused.
Since we have little ones, our walk must be aligned with our beliefs as well. As you put it very well, ” I need to make sure that my walk is in alignment with the virtues I want them to embrace”
You have the strength to do what God wants you to do, he wouldn’t give you a cross that’s too hard for you to carry. 🙂